Legal

He almost got me weak in the knees. Of all the temptations I've faced in my entire life, this one was indeed among the toughest ones that I've battled myself with. It even almost surpassed the food porn that left me drooling. Ok, just kidding. Food porn always on the top of everything, my diet always comes to an end because of it. That can't be helped. Anyway. Thanks to his sincere apology, I'm all relieved now and not holding dark emotions towards him anymore. I just need some time alone, to solve the puzzles in my head, to figure out what I'm capable of and what I deserve for. It gets very confusing everytime I try to think of the most possible way that can make things better. I really have no clue. All that I know is, I'm scared of another failure. I'm scared of what love can do to me. It always gives me more bitter than sweet memories, always.
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Awakening

Since I left you, mine eye is in my mind;

And that which governs me to go about

Doth part his function and is partly blind,

Seems seing, but effectually is out;

For it no form delivers to the heart

Of bird, of flower, or shape which it doth latch;

Of his quick objects hath the mind no part,

Nor his own vision holds what it doth catch;

For if it see the rud'st or gentlest sight,

The most sweet favour or deformed'st creature,

The mountain or the sea, the day or night,

The crow, or dove, it shapes them to your feature;

Incapable of more, replete with you,

My most true mind thus maketh mine eye untrue.

-Shakespeare's Sonnet 113


Like falling raindrops on the window tonight, my mind is getting stained by you. I want to hide everything, but I can't hide my heartbeat. In retrospect I'm at a standstill, 'cause I always have a heavy heart and my farewell has slow steps. I try erasing but I can't seem to erase certain parts of you until now. I try to forget but it seems like everything is an endless pain to me. Truth. I'd like to live happily from this day onwards. No more feel longing for someone who doesn't feel the exact same way as I do. So please, leave me alone.

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