Career Now, Man Later

My only defense now is to keep my heart guarded, tucked away where no one can merely even touch it, let alone steal it. These past couple weeks, the loneliness of living without somebody's presence have slowly crept around me, bringing me to this place of almost desperation to feel something, anything. I need someone to help me out in making me believe that I can go stronger and further while being together. I keep on telling myself that I will certainly find someone as soon as I'm ready. Even if there is someone making his moves on me now, it's not really the right time to do it. I'm getting over a break up and it seems like it's gonna take too long. I'd be lying if I said that I never thought of crawling my way back to him, loving each other more than before. But the chances of that are obviously astronomically small. I know this is probably the most clunky thing I have ever written, and I've hardly scratched the surface of the situation. I'm not even re-reading what I've just written. I just needed to let my thoughts spew out and put this somewhere, as it's been eating me alive more and more in the past weeks. 

Now that you're reading this, do I sound pathetic?

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Look, We Are Here!

Yep, I finally went to Zoo Negara with my ladies on a National Single Day. It was a very last minute plan. I had to leave the house in early morning after I wished for Boboy's birthday instead of celebrate it together with the family. Don't worry, he'll get another one next year. I was so elated to finally see the tigers, elephants, crocodiles, flamingos, pandas, giraffes and all other animals in real eyes! Definitely not regret any of it, except for the almost 150 bucks that I spent on that day. Had to fast la next week. Anyway, good news! Alhamdulillah, a new job is coming to get me, and if everything goes well, I might have to start a new life at Petaling Jaya. I know it's a great deal and I never gonna be ready for it. But I guess this is a good option that I should try, in order to forget what seems to be going in my mind very much lately, to forget that someone, and to explore what I'm truly capable of. Please pray for what's best for me, I really need it. 

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