Strength

I've been on my bed since Friday and cried so much because of few things. What happened was I feel like I being rude to my parents, words mixed between hidden feelings and the hope so they would try to understand what I feel, it was the first time ever I exploded. But that wasn't a good move, I pleaded guilty and I've apologised but I don't know if they forgive me, I don't know, I'm scared to know. I was so down I refused to talk or meet anyone at the moment. M got really mad at me for pushing him away too instead of telling him the truth. I was worried that he might walk away if he knows this. Oh God, he kept on forcing me to the point I feel like ugh let me just walk away (but I didn't), but then he called me around 3 a.m (after 15 missed calls) and we talked about it. Didn't plan to show him my fragile side, didn't wanna let him hear me crying either. But it happened anyway. I really hate when he dissed me, I never wanna hear those bad words again ugh! Oh Asmira called me up and she could tell right away that I wasn't okay, so I cried again. But after all those tears, I actually ended my weekend this time around having a quick catch-up with my highschool bestfriends, Kila and Ayon. That ended with lotsa laughters, stupid funny looking bitches. Miss them and the rests already! Just don't get married too early, okay?

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Oscar, What?

So basically last night my friends and I attended our company's annual dinner for the first time ever. With an oscar night black and gold theme, them girls dolled up really nice compared to me. I was just wearing whatever I have in my closet. Haih, the real me isn't interested in all this kind of thing but I realized it's always fun when we're together, so yeah. It was a good decision actually, now well done Alynn! 'Cause I won a huge rice cooker from a lucky draw, can use it later in the future. Oh, highlight of the night, Alif Satar were there to perform, ugh he's so versatile and capable of doing everything. I love it when he sang Sesungguhnya Aku live in front of my eyes! Ehem, our eyes. Siti Sarah also hyped us up with her Jangan Kau Mimpi song. Farah got too excited she even sang along and laughed like crazy, oh God I just can't stop giggling now, so funny!

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Good Company

Former maknyah bridesmaids reunited at Iman's wedding reception today ♥