Talking Creative

What more could I asked for. This is a fine friendship with no quarrels but all morals ♥

Dive Deep

Day spent well with my KMPP bestfriend, Asmira and her good friend, Kamal. Oh God, I just reached home at 11 p.m can you imagine that? Lucky me that Ayah didn't get mad, he's all smiling while opened the door for me just now. Hmm, that's weird. Whatever! I'm feeling all guilty now, Asmira and Kamal came all the way from Bukit Beruntung to my house just to fetch me up and drove to our destination, Aquaria KLCC. Originally, I was supposed to go back hometown but it was cancelled. And my second plan was to go to UM giving some supports to my teammates who were about to compete in canoeing, but instead I chose to go out with them both 'cause I've been persuaded for several times and I wanted to meet As so bad. It was all fun, all blurry with everything, but I'm glad that I went out today, everything was just so beautiful. Oh and we went to watch Paskal also, about that, well, umm, the movie was not that bad, not even that reaaaally good either, it was just nice, I can say that it's a so so la. Anyway, can't wait for our next date, but I have a heavy heart if they have to come here again even they feel okay with it. And I don't have the balls to drive so far from my house either. We'll see what's next. So, bye then see ya!

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Silently Disappointing

Here I am, focusing on beauteous days ahead, starting from scratch to build my own kind of happiness, my stronger self. Judging by the most recent disappointment that I have faced, I now realized that I should stop hoping on people, even on the ones that I've known since forever. Because in reality, people changed and I don't blame them. I just feel in bones that some of them aren't the ones that I used to know anymore. Apparently I'm much less important to them that I thought I would be when they're like the world to me. So yeah, whatever, I don't wanna care about them anymore, it just keeps on hurting me inside and I'm pretty sure that they're better off without me by their sides. Anyways, this it it. This is gonna take a lot of work and a lot of time, but I'll move forward by my own now. Oh, of course, with joys of being around the new girls and big sisters at work that I've known only for few months, yeah they're great though. But most importantly, at the end of the day, I still can stand strong as long my family sticks around me. The actual ones who noticed my ebb and flow yet accepted me for who I am, ones who always reminds me not to give up on smiling again no matter how bitter my world turns out. On top of that, they're recognized my sulking habits (for some legitimate reasons), yet they still pulled me in whenever I tried to shut them all out. I lost to them everytime that happens, especially to my mom.

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