Lost Soul

Ssup! I'm currently on the final two weeks of my internship and I'll be presenting my mini project on this friday. I don't know what will happen next, just hoping that everything will turn out well. Anyway, my birthday was on 19th August, thought that one person might be a little bit thoughtful and send me a birthday wish text but he didn't. That asshole! I was totally wrong for waiting, I know. Uh nevermind, not doing it again I promise. So let me tell you what just happened today. I just lost my grandma on my dad's side this morning. My parents rushed back to Kelantan and I felt numb as I got the news on the phone. I don't know why but it's so hard for me to be happy now. It's too much. Everything just happened so sudden and so bad.

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Stumbling

One thing that I know now for sure is that I may not be among the bests, but I'm better in studying than getting involve in love and relationships. Since almost everyone's a pusher, who pushed me to pursue a master, so I thought why not? Since I have no any huge commitment and responsibility to carry on for the moment, maybe I'll do it. At least this is the only thing I could be sure of, the thing that I have a complete power to control it. Well I'm pretty scared to even think about it. I'm not deciding now, maybe later, when all of my emotions are in a more stable condition. Ahhh, I wish I could tell you about someone but nevermind, I don't want to. Afraid that old sparkles and fireworks might come out of this shell of my heart, so forget it then. I'm doing fine. Even if I don't, I gotta be. I gotta keep telling myself "you're doing great". Okay. That's not so weird. What's weird is that all of my friends are currently in love and believe me, I'm truly happy for them. It's just that, now I'm scared. Scared that I may be left behind, alone.

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All These Years

So this is how I ended my July 2016, and welcoming the month of my birth, August 2016 baby!

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