I'm engaged ! After months of pushing back the date because of covid19 strict SOP guideline and rules, we finally made it to this day. I'm so relieved that everything goes well, only got a bit of hiccups during the discussion between the two family representatives. But the rest are good. My dress is beautiful, only that sometimes I look fat in the picture because of the ruffles on top side. The tailor didn't really understood my request but nevermind. My makeup doesn't look ugly, phew. I asked for a natural look, so, it's not bad. My man looks soooo damn fine in that baju melayu with sampin and songkok. Oh my god, I peek a little through the window and I just fall in love with him more. He's very handsome, even when he just stands there doing nothing. The food are all delicious, my favourite would be ayam masak merah. Weather's good too. Just perfect! I'm so nervous and my hands are shaking more knowing that his families come with 12 cars, imagine how my heart beats so fast that time. But all in all, it's a very happy day for me. Gotta thanks my family and relatives for all the helping hands that make my day.
Now that we're engaged, I hope whatever's coming to our way, we can handle it together as a team. I hope he knows that I'm definitely love him more than anyone else now, does that sounds ridiculous? Idk, but I still have to be careful not to get hurt, nor hurting him in any possible way. People keep on telling me it's gonna get tough for us both in the upcoming months after our engagement. So yeah, I will bear that in mind, but I can't wait to be his all, can't wait for him to be just mine. Never thought this day would even come for someone like me, someone who's got so many flaws and past love that leave me bickering within myself, only to refuse of getting married. I used to think it's truly a gamble. Either you settle down with someone who's good enough for you to live a bowl of cherries life, or bad enough for you to break you down into shattered pieces. I've been told not to overthink and worry a lot, but sometimes I can't help it. In the end of the day, I shall pray for nothing but Him to prove I'm wrong, and to let me know that I too deserve a life of comfort and joyfulness by my lover's side. So then here I am, with Muhammad Syazwan. We're almost there baby. I love you so much!
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