Black And Red

After weeks of planning for the dinner, celebrating our bendahari's retirement day, we finally did a splendid job! Oh I'm glad that I joined this group and learn so many things from them cool people. Not a bad thing anyway. So, as you guys know my contract will ended on 31st May, I actually had a mixed kind of feelings to leave the place and my colleagues. But this is what I wished for, to step out of my comfort zone. So as my first step of doing so, I went to an interview last week in Bangi. It went better than the last interview for finance executive haritu. Damn it! I don't wanna think about it anymore. So now I'm currently waiting for the result, hoping it's a good one 'cause I'm desperate for a job. Oh at the same time, someone from another department offered me a job, but I still think about it. Let's say if I accept it, on the bright side; I'm gonna learn new things and meet new people. Tapi on the weak point of it, it's going to be a daily wage. It's like I'm moving a step backward from where I am right now. That's not good, but still, money is money!

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Roses

Let me be the finest balm of your disappointed love and your frustrated life. You know when you feel down, I'm ready to listen. Though your life decisions only rested on your shoulders, I could lend you my ears and my shoulders for you to lean on for a while. Hopefully, just hopefully, you guys will be there for me too.

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When I Used To Fall In Love

Your eyes make my heart pounds

Your gestures shake me up

Back and forth

With just a few words from you

I can't even find strength

Whatever you do

I can't hold back my smile

You became my love

You became my world

Now you're the one who makes me breathe again

I don't hate this right now

So I'll always be by your side

I can't do anything about it

The magic spell that you cast on me

I'm shaken up back and forth

It's like I'm living only for you

And living like that right now

Becomes my joy and it grows

Seeing how weak I got

I tried to escape from you

But in the end, I'm by your side again

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Save Me

My heart is an open book

Torn open by my story

Tell them you learned the lesson

You'll learn it every time

My bones want to melt

My muscles want to let go

My body wants to stop

Walking for air

Struggling for life

Fighting for people

There's a pain inside my chest

Born of silence, grief and unrest

Who's there but me to claim it

Who's there but me to name it

Tell me I can get lost

Tell me I can remain forever broken

Tell me how to erase myself from it

And lay my own tired steps to rest

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