Hi! Raya was normal as usual, except that I've been facing emotional problem in some days. Sometimes it was really tiring to put up a happy face in front of people like nothing happened, so I just couldn't help it but to cry silently in the room hoping that nobody would see, but Mama saw me. Oh best thing was the little Iris saw me crying too and she ratted out about it to everyone! Damn it. Hmm Mama knew everything already, about what happened with the love I had before. It's funny to type here the whole story, and somehow I just don't get her, somehow I feel it's unfair to me. But anyway, it's already in the past. Dah malas nak fikir, lantak lah! I do feel like maybe he should know, but nothing can change anymore. So forget it! In the end, I just have to apologize and she would always be the one to forgive. Well, anyone does. That's just how it goes. Anyway, next weekend will be the moment where my parents will go merisik for Boboy, and also the day where Kaklong finally dirisik by someone. Man, time goes fast eh. Now only me left behind. I'm starting to wonder am I really that bad, ya Allah? I mean, nothing seems to work out for me these days. Nothing.
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