A Little Rush That's Not Too Much

It's quite stressful to plan a wedding, I was thinking to just do the bare minimum but I changed my mind. Like, I want my once in a lifetime wedding turns out beautiful. Hence I been focusing and hoping that flower decorations and every little details meet my expectations. But I also don't want to get my hopes high, scared might disappoint myself. I haven't finalized my wedding theme yet, that'll have to discuss with the vendor a month before the date. Now pending vendors to search for henna, hand bouquet, wedding cake, and wedding reception attire. We also haven't buy rings and settle the forms yet. We're almost there, got 2 months more, that should be enough time for us to complete everything. May Allah ease.

Oh, all praise to Him, I got new job offer and I already accepted it about last week. I swear I didn't expect this good news after I screwed up in the interview session with them. They gave me 2 case studies and I couldn't do the forecasting one as I never done it before. They offered 33% salary increment after few times of negotiation. Weird, at first they informed me they set a 4-5k budget for that position, and they offered me only rm200 increment in the beginning. After several calls and explanation why I demand for higher, finally they agreed. Both the new company and DKSH agreed to let me serve for 1.5 months, and the new company will buy me out for 0.5. So I'll be tied up to financial bond with the new company for 6 months. As usual, I'm already nervous and excited, so I keep on praying harder so my Lord will help me whenever I need Him. 

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Feyoncé-fied 💍

 

I'm engaged ! After months of pushing back the date because of covid19 strict SOP guideline and rules, we finally made it to this day. I'm so relieved that everything goes well, only got a bit of hiccups during the discussion between the two family representatives. But the rest are good. My dress is beautiful, only that sometimes I look fat in the picture because of the ruffles on top side. The tailor didn't really understood my request but nevermind. My makeup doesn't look ugly, phew. I asked for a natural look, so, it's not bad. My man looks soooo damn fine in that baju melayu with sampin and songkok. Oh my god, I peek a little through the window and I just fall in love with him more. He's very handsome, even when he just stands there doing nothing. The food are all delicious, my favourite would be ayam masak merah. Weather's good too. Just perfect! I'm so nervous and my hands are shaking more knowing that his families come with 12 cars, imagine how my heart beats so fast that time. But all in all, it's a very happy day for me. Gotta thanks my family and relatives for all the helping hands that make my day.

Now that we're engaged, I hope whatever's coming to our way, we can handle it together as a team. I hope he knows that I'm definitely love him more than anyone else now, does that sounds ridiculous? Idk, but I still have to be careful not to get hurt, nor hurting him in any possible way. People keep on telling me it's gonna get tough for us both in the upcoming months after our engagement. So yeah, I will bear that in mind, but I can't wait to be his all, can't wait for him to be just mine. Never thought this day would even come for someone like me, someone who's got so many flaws and past love that leave me bickering within myself, only to refuse of getting married. I used to think it's truly a gamble. Either you settle down with someone who's good enough for you to live a bowl of cherries life, or bad enough for you to break you down into shattered pieces. I've been told not to overthink and worry a lot, but sometimes I can't help it. In the end of the day, I shall pray for nothing but Him to prove I'm wrong, and to let me know that I too deserve a life of comfort and joyfulness by my lover's side. So then here I am, with Muhammad Syazwan. We're almost there baby. I love you so much!

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